Thursday, October 5, 2017

Little lie

We tell ourselves little lie to feel better
We tell our friends little lie to make them feel better
And we repeat it often enough and starts believing it
Little lie often feed us to make us age gracefully
Not into our intention nor being pretty dramatic
Might be a feeling of scared to face the truth
Might even be stuck of not brave enough taking ground-breaking action
In conjunction of unleashing the way to a better life

Left with no choice, we barely can speak it out
Dare not to break the chain
A risk to gamble if only will be paid off
Little lie to ensure of giving comfort to one heart and feeling
Is it what we called love?
Is it enough to restrain the pain from the truth
Is it called sacrifice?
Will it help by letting lies to put them into ignorant

Friday, September 15, 2017

Terfikir akan sesuatu

gambar sekadar hiasan
How magnificent is our brain... Great is the creator who made it works in a very extraordinary ways. Unlike of an apps install in one device, brain works in very superb way. Things that is unreal can even become real to one person. How amazing does it function. I can't imagine seeing the combination effect when the brain work together with emotion. I guess. this is a situation where a person can't control from the outside but only involve inner way solution such as meditation, prayer etc. It is even hard to understand and me myself keep on asking questions about it. Why this..Why that..What if...What if not. Questions with no answer as for now.

Only God knows how it work. Great is He Awesome is Him.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Saya Rindu Awak

Bangun pagi terdetik teringat dia
Rasa sunyi tiba tiba terasa
Sudut yang kecil di dalam hati dirasa
Terlihat gambaran wajahnya
Senyum masih ku ingat dari mukanya
Seakan masih terasa dia disisi ada
Malam kian jadi lebih gelap
Semakin lama semakin pudar menjadi bayangan
Ku tutup mata
Namun semakin jauh gambaran mu pergi
Wajahmu semakin pudar dalam memori
Ya Tuhan
Ku rindu dirinya
Sangat rindu akan dia
Tiada apa dapat dilakukan
Hanya berserah
Dan mendoakan kau sentiasa baik
Saya rindu awak

Monday, June 15, 2015

Lelahku Menanti "Kepulanganku"

Rindu ini takkan mati
Walaupun apa yang terjadi
Oh akankah sang mentari
Sampaikan cerita ku ini
Aku lelah dan teramat lelah
Menanggung beban sendiri
Aku lelah, Ku teramat lelah

Monday, June 8, 2015

I Lost Jazzy

When I arrive last night, the main gate of my house was widely open and so as the main door.. I was shocked and speechless. I can feel my heart likely to stop pumping. i giggles and I felt a very strong cold, flowing down to my end of feet. 
The house was robbed..oh my.. I am new in the area. not even almost a month stayin in the house. 
I used taxi service from KLIA..luckly.. when I saw my house was robbed, i cant think of any other but to go to police ststion. I ask the favor of the taxi guy to send me to police station.Thank God he is willing to help.. I owe him a lot for helping me last night. May Lord bless you and your family for your kindness.

I straight away went to make police report on the robbery. The policeman come and do some checking and investigation around 2am. since 3am I cant barely close my eye thinking of what had happened..
The key that I will let it go tomolo... the door knob kena cungkil oleh the penyamun... 
sakit hati bila tengok. macam rasa putus cinta dulu.. Jazzy, I will miss you so very much. Even now my tear starts to flood my face.

When I arrived home, Jazzy is already kidnapped... celaka punya penyamun..

I bought 1 unit Samsung 40" few days before I left to Miri... and now its gone too..celaka btul. dasar penyamun!!

Luckly my Astro decorder and DVD player is not stolen. and the speaker is still there. 

I dismantle my unifi set and gather them in the ikea do these unifi set, all are gone.

QMX 5963, this i think will be the last I talk about you. RIP Jazzy.

Yup... that penyamun is fucking darn homosapien. I work hard to earn Jazzy..klu nak berusaha la sungguh2 sendiri utk dpt mcm ni..jgn dok mencurik je dari orang..

yes..I cried... hatred starts assemble in my mind..I started to blame God for letting this to happen. I started to blame God for being away from me and my matters.... now I tend to feel down and my tought are fulled on negativity...
Owh goshhh..... I cant take this anymore. This is making me soo stressfull..
Please God, have Your mercy on me. I cant take this level of temptation any longer. I know I have no right to cast it away but I beg you God... Please help me..

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Feeling From Distance

Photo of KL view in distance (Source from internet.)

Looking at the above picture, I never know that every morning (monday to friday) I am now looking at the Menara KL and KLCC every day on my way heading to my office. Never in my plan nor in my mind, especting myself to walk to the bus stop, and transit to lrt train and standing inside the lrt train towards LRT Ampang Park station. I just cant believe this happening now. Far beyond my own will, I am now starts working in KL headquarters.
The environment is really differ from KK. What I mean is, the traffic, the people surround, the building as well as their structures, the air I breath (kind of lack oxygen supply and suffocated with carbon dioxide).
I remember the time when me and my friend in the office get stressed, and what often we do is, after work we head to Tanjung Aru beach and lepak at the Sugarbun until 7pm/8pm. Feeling the air, the sand and the waves really pull yourself out of the stress. Further more, the beach is only about 5 - 10 minutes drive from my office/KK town. How fantamarbolous is life in KK right?.
However, I get to get back to my reality. I'm gonna change my way of thinking and my way of involving in work, my own activity as well as my own planning. Gotta improvise to blend-in with the new life. I will forever remember this quote ;

"when you are given a lemon, it might look like a bad present because of its sour taste, but instead of making it a junk, lets squeeze and peel it off to make an ice lemon tea..."

its a refreshing to have an ice lemon tea during the hot time...
Cheers guyz...

Thursday, May 8, 2014


I just don't know but this is what i feel. Since I came here, I am totally lost. Felt like being cast away and I couldn't do things like normal. My brain work differently. I cannot consentrate and do multi tasking work. I definitely lost and my focus dragged till no end.
Fuckin my brain ass... gotta do surgery to remove the brain. Living death like zombie but this time is without brain..
Source: my camera