Feeling From Distance

Photo of KL view in distance (Source from internet.)



Looking at the above picture, I never know that every morning (monday to friday) I am now looking at the Menara KL and KLCC every day on my way heading to my office. Never in my plan nor in my mind, especting myself to walk to the bus stop, and transit to lrt train and standing inside the lrt train towards LRT Ampang Park station. I just cant believe this happening now. Far beyond my own will, I am now starts working in KL headquarters.

 

The environment is really differ from KK. What I mean is, the traffic, the people surround, the building as well as their structures, the air I breath (kind of lack oxygen supply and suffocated with carbon dioxide).

 

I remember the time when me and my friend in the office get stressed, and what often we do is, after work we head to Tanjung Aru beach and lepak at the Sugarbun until 7pm/8pm. Feeling the air, the sand and the waves really pull yourself out of the stress. Further more, the beach is only about 5 - 10 minutes drive from my office/KK town. How fantamarbolous is life in KK right?.

 

However, I get to get back to my reality. I'm gonna change my way of thinking and my way of involving in work, my own activity as well as my own planning. Gotta improvise to blend-in with the new life. I will forever remember this quote ;

"when you are given a lemon, it might look like a bad present because of its sour taste, but instead of making it a junk, lets squeeze and peel it off to make an ice lemon tea..."

its a refreshing to have an ice lemon tea during the hot time...
Cheers guyz...

 

 

 

F.O.C.U.S

I just don't know but this is what i feel. Since I came here, I am totally lost. Felt like being cast away and I couldn't do things like normal. My brain work differently. I cannot consentrate and do multi tasking work. I definitely lost and my focus dragged till no end.

Fuckin my brain ass... gotta do surgery to remove the brain. Living death like zombie but this time is without brain..

 

Source: my camera

Sedetik aku terfikir

Seketika aku melayan fikiran ku yang bercelaru ini. Melihat keadaan ku kini, aku mula bertanya-tanya apa sebenarnya yg sedang aku cari dalam memenuhi rongga-rongga kehidupan ku di sini yang bergelar kuala lumpur.

 

Mahu dikatakan sedih, ya aku sedih kerana banyak yang aku tinggalkan ;kehendak diri, kawan2, dan yang paling penting aku kini berada dlm situasi d  luar daripada zon keselesaanku.

Kenapa perlu bermula lg? Sdgkan aku bertukar bukan kerana kenaikan pangkat. Apa yg akn menguntungkan aku untuk berada d sini.

"Kenapa?!!...kenapa aku?!!" Terjah hatiku yg telah terguris dan hanya mampu menahan sakit dan tidak mampu berbuat apa2.

 

Adakah mereka faham akn sengsara dan signifikan akan keputusan mereka terhadap emosi, fizikal dan kewangan aku sekarang?..aku tertanya dan hatiku mula suram mengenangkn kembali apa yg bakal berlaku d depan kehidupanku.

 

aku dan diriku