Hates of U-Turn

I hate when I start to trust on something and then it turned upside-down. I hate when I start to love being with them and then I see people stabbing each other from the back. I hate when I start to share my secret with them when then that people I trust is the one who became the "news-distributor". I hate to build the relationship when then the trust is built behind a lie. Then, I should answer this some question from the XX zone:

You don't know how to mixed around in this XX zone?!
It just that I don't feel I want to and I don't want to, because I don't see the needs of mixing around the people who makes more assumtion on others than knowing & telling the truth.

You always keep things yourself!
Yup..most of the things. I don't trust anyone in this XX zone.

You don't have friend in this XX zone!
I have but with varies type of them. Some are "so-called friend" such as;
I have those friends who is only at my side when they need me.
I have those friends who keep silent when I make mistake.
I have those friends who let me fall and let me discover my own fault (if only I knew/realize the fault)
I have those friends who let me alone when I am in trouble.
I have those friends who laugh at me when they know some other people knock me from behind/step me on my head.
I have those friends who speaks sweet in front of me but then "throw muds to my name" behind me.
I have those friends who step-a-step-backward when I have nothing left to offer.

Now, see what XX zone gave me during the time I tried very hard to survive in it. Worth or not, let God involve in it.

However, I do still thank God for some real & good friend He gave in XX zone. What so ever, that is life. People have so much to offer and yet you received only a little. ah~~~aaaa