Sedetik aku terfikir

Seketika aku melayan fikiran ku yang bercelaru ini. Melihat keadaan ku kini, aku mula bertanya-tanya apa sebenarnya yg sedang aku cari dalam memenuhi rongga-rongga kehidupan ku di sini yang bergelar kuala lumpur.

 

Mahu dikatakan sedih, ya aku sedih kerana banyak yang aku tinggalkan ;kehendak diri, kawan2, dan yang paling penting aku kini berada dlm situasi d  luar daripada zon keselesaanku.

Kenapa perlu bermula lg? Sdgkan aku bertukar bukan kerana kenaikan pangkat. Apa yg akn menguntungkan aku untuk berada d sini.

"Kenapa?!!...kenapa aku?!!" Terjah hatiku yg telah terguris dan hanya mampu menahan sakit dan tidak mampu berbuat apa2.

 

Adakah mereka faham akn sengsara dan signifikan akan keputusan mereka terhadap emosi, fizikal dan kewangan aku sekarang?..aku tertanya dan hatiku mula suram mengenangkn kembali apa yg bakal berlaku d depan kehidupanku.

 

aku dan diriku

Boracay Trip : Introduction

Here are introduction for the Philippine's Trip this month of Dec 2013. 
Briefly, the itinerary are as below;
Kota Kinabalu - Manila
Manila - Caticlan (Boracay)
Boracay - Kalibo - Manila
Manila - Kota Kinabalue

This trip was really fun. Though before the trip, there were lots of thing that really bring your motivation down to the ground. Even during the vacation, I still not having a calm feeling to enjoy the trip. When I reached KK after nearly about 9 days traveling, I only realized I forgot to email my boss of a report. I just couldn't remember about it and I really forgot about it. The day before the trip, I have a long list to be done, and I missed 1 but very important report. Nevertheless, the trip were awesome and marvelous... no doubt it was really awesome if I keep thing about work to the side.

Que for the take off... 

 This time we used cebupacific airline direct from Kota Kinabalu to Manila. We reached Manila very early in the morning at around 2:30am. We then went to this one hotel just to take a rest while waiting for the next flight at 2:30pm to Caticlan (Boracay). Not really having enough sleep but the trip still need to be going. From Manila to Boracay, we also using cebupacific airline.

Part of Manila from the sky...

Not really sure where is this already, but if not mistaken not far from Manila..

About to reach Caticlan Airport...

 Just feeling good to be near the blue sky...

View of Boracay Island from the sky...

 The land-shape of Boracay Island is similar to a guitar shape. According to one of the guide, the Boracay Island is ~7km long and ~+-1km width. But the seashore of the island is mostly surrounded with white sand.Amazing and beautiful right..go and experience it!!.. ;)

About to land.... buckled up, seat straight up and ready for the Landing

Landed at Caticlan Airport...using cebupacific airline

 Arrived at Caticlan Airport. A small airport and when you arrive, don't forget to register your name at the counter..

..

Safely arrived...Boracay Island

Yeahhhh...arrived the hotel and next is getting ready for the island activities..Will be continue in next part.

nothing to say..devastation maybe...

Have nothing to say. .....

 

source: adopted from internet with add-on

I want to speak it out but then I felt its wrong. Then I will just keep it to myself.

So that no one to be blamed and nothing will get agitate.

I do aware and understand, I have no power to say anything, even if I brought it out, all will be back to myself.

So, better let it be this way.

 

HE said, I will not be tested over my capability, but fuck...I wish I am not born as ME.

 



Aku Bisa Gila

 

Yup..a.k.u.b.i.s.a.g.i.l.a

Im really screwed... Just that, I didn't really aspects lots of thing give impacts to my life this few month. So much pressure and drama and tasks slam me really hard. When everything assembled, I really felt of not able to take it anymore. It become overload and I just couldn't take it anymore.

 

Goshh..... speechless and all I want to do is punch on my chest near the heart... Baammm....

Gossshhhhhh.. Help me Lord.

 

Pity me Lord. I bow unto You... Only You I hope and trust. Help me ..Dear Lord.

 



Balikkkkk...balikk

Last weekend balik Kuching.. Buat aper? ntah la..saja nak kluar negeri and refresh badan. Maybe... Hahaha... Was very tention with things in mind. Cam bnyk mok fikir and I just dont know how to settle all this matter. Jadi I straight away buy ticket to Kch. Ngam2 my parent also in Kuching with my sister jadi aku pun fly pg Kch. I really need it.

my boarding pass to Kch

flying (pinjam gambar masa fly to Myy)

Was excited sebab dapat fly balik and felt sangat free bila berada di atas awan. Rasa macam " having own wing attached to myself". With what I have in mind how I wish I am traveling to Korea (long hour journey). Tak rasa penat but kenapa saya pun tak tahu saya rasa sangat seronok berada di dalam kapal yang sedang terbang di atas langit...phewwww

my watch showing the altitude...2260m ..wahhhh

Bila di atas kapal, baru terfikir wanna try to see the altitude..Tidak tahu la betul ke tidak the figure. hermm...its 2260m = 7415 ft ??
Apa-apa je la...yang penting Aku Fly Lagi.... Flying Without Wings... muahahaha

Thousand Steps Million drops of H2O

Thousand steps back home? drops of H2O?? huhh??... hahaha.. let me make it clear on what it means.

 

Because of irresponsible homosapiens out there who threw a pebble on my front windshield, It causes a long cracked down part of my front windshield. By looking at it, felt the same feeling of having broken bone hitted with baseball bat. thats hurt dude,,,sooo much hurt.

 

So I sent my car a.k.a Optimus to UMW this morning and after some checking on Optimus, and clear on the figure to pay for, so I left Optimus at UMW with a hope that all procedures involved in replacing the new windshield will go smooth. Hopefully Optimus will be okey after the replacement. I went back to my office with taxi. Met this new guy En. Usman, from Tawau. A generous guy who only charged me RM20 (giving me RM5 discount , when the fare suppose to be RM25). In return, I pray that the blessing on your family from God will never stop. Amen.

 

After 5.40pm, I walk out the office with questions in my mind.

"How to go back??"

"Walk back?? dare enough to walk that far distance?"

"Still got taxi or not??"

 

Then, I took out my phone and start calling some of the taxi guy I knew. ..puffffff... what  a day. They are all stuck in traffic. goshhh...NVM.

 

I decided to walk to QEH which I usually saw some taxis will wait for passenger in line at the side of the road near the padesterian walk. I walk out, cross the highway and then slowly walk to the place where I usually sees the taxis lining up. Puffffffff...goshhhhh..."NO TAXI?! ..."

I waited for about 15 - 20 minutes. I look on my watch.

"It's 6:20PM. And the clouds up there is thickening, dark in colour"

I decided to walk back home. Well.... there is always be something that will be the first time in your life. Right!! This will be the first time for me to walk back home from office. GREATTT!!!! Cant wait to see if I can finish it until home.

 

The journey starts from QEH and then passing Kepayan Ridge area and then heading to Austral Park area. I look up in the sky. The wind blows stronger and felt small drips of the rain.

 

As I walk to Austral Park area, I feel the drizzle but I just ignore it. As I walk further, the drizzle is now going bigger. The wind blows harder and I can feel my skin is freezing when the wind blows passes my skin.

 

 

But when I reach the 88 market area, it start raining heavily. I need to stop. With the hard wind + heavy rain + thunder =I GOT TO FIND SHADE.. and then I enter one of the shop nearby and I get myself ......

 

A NEW UMBRELLA and 2 tins of MILO...

 

ohhhhhhhh.noooooo.... its almost 7:15pm and its dark outside. Need no to wait, then

Redah saja lahhh.....

 

  

The side of the road is full with water flowing. Was scared of cars splashing me while walking at the side of the road.

  

Nearly home and the rain keeps pouring down...

 

Finally..I'm home and totally wet. Luckly my stuff inside my bag is not wet. Thanks God...

 

To treat myself good, lets enjoy Coffea while its still raining.... fuhhhhh...

What a day with thousand steps million drops of rain (H2O)...

Kundasang with family and Ashira

Its been a while i didn't do any blogging. I felt sick today. My head is a little bit dizzy and pain at my throat. My voice sounds more deep now and when I caugh I like the sound of "kahak mingling inside my throat". But its a good thing that im now resting on my sofa and I can update my blog. yehaa...

 

The day now seems passing like a snap of finger. It start and end like you never notice it. Last school holiday, my family come and visit me in KK. Was suprise with the last minute plan. Anyway I feel good and happy to have them here. The house need some noise of my niece. I missed the shouting and the crying inside the house. Wahahaa..whom am I refering to?? this baby-girl...

 

oh noooo..she is out already..... hahahaha

 She has been my tail since the day she arrived. And even need to pujuk her to balik with her mom to Miri. The only place she didn't follow is the restroom. Muahahaha...

 

I never notice she is that big now. Even talk a lot like her grandfather (non-stop talking and even still talking when I am already snooring...thats what my mom said). Funny is when I start snooring she will shake my body and say " wake up!!..why are you making noise!!" macam funny and mcm mok lempang juga budak ini sebab kacau tido..hahahahaha....kidding.

 

We decided to go for a day trip to Kundasang. Was thinking of taking them overnight at Simpang Mengayau and have some bbq, but my sister and brother in-law need to settle on something. But Day Trip Kundasang sounds great. What I love more is taking photos of them. At least more time spent for memories...

 



this is how she smile..lol



 

A picture at Puncak Borneo with background of the great Mount Kinabalu

 

 

Sist and Ashira with green background...

with mom..

 

that's how she is with her granma and granpa

 Well, that's all for now. The trip was fun and enjoy. Hoping to have another trip with the whole sibling. cheers...