One word?!

Think of one word now....... One word that described of what you are now.....



One word huh??....one word.....then the word will be .........errrrrr.....





One word........hermmm.........




Maybe, it is ..................hem..nope...



One word huhh?????





WHY SO HARD TO FIND ONE!!!....


Ask for many words to describe you now and you will come out with lots of it... find one?! ... And you will never find it. Why? What causes this?? ermm..maybe this is the reason of it.... in whatever circumstances, we always think big and wide and never focus on the real one.

This really described me....fuhhh.... more things to learn in life. I'm telling myself not to stop learning and never stop learning from mistake. I heard some people say this "soalan macam budak-budak", but I never agree to this kind of people. In this life, there is no such question labelled as "soalan budak-budak".... You are free to ask anything that you don't know because it's better to ask even a simple question than to assume of knowing it. Cast away all the ego in you and never feel down for asking simple question.

Dreaming

Inspired by this song.. How I wish there is in English version... If someone can play the music then I am volunteer to sing it...ngiahaha..but don't put on high expectation for the voice..muahaha

Dreaming... some says, foolish dreams are poisonous, but with passion, in no matter what they are doing even when they with their mistakes, the dreams will comes to a reality and it is not only a fantasy.

(in English..cited from internet...not sure if the translation is that accurate..hehe)

I was looking at my dream
that is being deemed far away
and I was standing blankly

i don’t have
anything left any more
I thought about giving up everything but..
I am standing up again

Even today, step by step
I step forward carefully
My heart is full of fear,
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
I am staggering and shaking
But, I step forward towards
the dream that I am going to meet some day

As I’m thinking if it is going end like this,
a fear constantly comes,
I’m hesitating but…
Deep inside my heart
there’s an unstoppable beating
that drags me forward

Even today, step by step
I step forward carefully
My heart is full of fear,
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
I am staggering and shaking
But, I step forward towards
the dream that I am going to meet some day

Even today, step by step
I step forward carefully
My heart is full of fear,
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
I am staggering and shaking
But, I step forward towards
the dream that I am going to meet some day
towards the dream that I am going to meet some day

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Jeo molli hweuimi haejineun
Naeui kkumeul barabomyeo
Meonghani seoisseotjyo

Dae isang nameun ge eopseo
Modu pogi halkka haesseotjiman
Dashi ireonayo

Han georeum han goreum oneuldo
Joshim seoreobge nae didyeoyo
Gaseum gadeukhi dunyeo umgwa
Seolleimeul aneun chae

Biteul georigo heundeullyeodo
Nan tto han georeumeul nae didyeoyo
Eonjenga mannal nae kkomeul hyanghae

Idaero kkutnaneun geon anilji
Duryeoumi nal jakkuman
Mangseorige hajiman

Gaseumsok giteun goseseo
Meomchoji anhneun ulliminal
Apeure ikkeoljyo

Han georeum han georeum oneuldo
Joshim seoreobge nae didyeoyo
Gaseum gadeukhi dunyo umgwa
Seolleimeul aneun chae

Biteul georigo heundeullyeodo
Nan tto han georeumeul nae didyeoyo
Eonjenga mannal nae kkumeul hyanghae

Han georeum han georeum oneuldo
Joshim georeobge nae didyeoyo
Gaseum gadeukhi dunyo umgwa
Seollaimeul aneun chae

Biteul georigo heundeullyeodo
Nan tto han georeumeul nae didyeoyo
Eonjenga mannal nae kkumeul hyanghae

Eonjenga mannal nae kkumeul hyanghae

raining....

Things that Move me on

Next week I’ll be going out for a fieldtrip. I will be out of the ‘network’ for almost 3 weeks, depending on the result of the geophysics surveyed. Anyway, even if the results is not going to give a green light to continue the survey with more survey lines, we still need at least 2 days to transport back all the equipments and fieldwork tools to our base camp.

Looking back to the previous month, I used to set on target/objective to keep the time ticking until the next week of the same day... I created an emotion of excitement waiting for the same day of another week and this makes me go on... that’s why, it is one of the reason that I sometime are not realized that months and years have passed.

I used to wait for MONDAY, because of STAR KING, THE FIRST WIVES CLUB and YES, CAPTAIN

I waited for TUESDAY because of KPOP STAR... switching on the tv right away I reached home

Waited for WEDNESDAY because of THE VOICE, THE FIRST WIVES CLUB and SALARYMAN CHO HAN JI

Another day of THURSDAY because of STRONG HEART, THE FIRST WIVES CLUB and SALARYMAN CHO HAN JI

Used to wait for RUNNING MAN on FRIDAY

SATURDAY will be the marathon of Movie and Drama from CDs

SUNDAY will be resting the whole day after the laundry....

And next week, I’m going to be in the “heart of greens” for almost 3 weeks... ohh nooo... what should I do to replace all the "so called activity"?? hahaha....No tv, no network, no sms, no internet, no clean filtered water supply and no electricity. I was used to enjoy staying in the jungle before. When I went for it for the first time, I was very excited; it feels like going back to kampung and experiencing the air with fresh O2. But then, after many trips, the index of excitement falling down with the self-motivation. What so ever, AS ORDERED, it is a MUST for me to do the fieldwork...No fieldwork = No learning = No Report to show the boss = No APC ..hahahaha. Therefore, I am going with a hope that I will come back with a fresh motivation after the meditation in the jungle.Hahahaha...kidding. For this coming trip, I hope that things will go smoothly as for the preparation, tools, the schedule, the journey, the roads (hopefully not raining on the day we travel because the logging roads will get slippery)... Hoping for the best time and enjoyable trip, lets be back safe and peace...hahahahahhahahha

Grrrrr.....still not having any idea on what to do on the site while waiting for the next day to rise. On the site, we used to sleep as early as 7pm or 8pm..just right after dinner. With only candles bright out the camp, for the first week of all trip, I felt it was a very peaceful period of life. Followed by the sound of bugs, frogs and birds (owl?/small birds/crow?), it does really refreshing my mind. What matter is, for the first week is feel just okey, but for another more week of Week 2 and Week 3, goshhh, I get toxic-ted..hahaha...

I should do Reading.. Ermm.... it is already a “must do” thing in the site. What other entertainment can I do?... I need to sort the things I should do while I am in the site... What say you? Any idea?

semua seperti menjadi genap

seperti semua akan menjadi genap pada tahun ini...seperti satu kebetulan, baru tadi aku terpikir pada kira-kira ini:

aku lahir pada 28 haribulan 12 pada tahun 1982. Bila dibuat kira-kira;
28+12+1982 = 2012

nah..genap lagi...tahun 2012?? ada maksud ka ini??

tahun ini pun genap umur 30 tahun..dan sekali lagi nombor genap....

harap-harap la tahuan 2012 neh akan menjadi tahun prosperity...ada juga aku rasa macam tarikh expire hidupp di dunia..hahaha..kalau pun adalah tahun genap berada di bumi, harap-harap la menuju jalan yg betul dan tidak menyimpang dari "pintu dan jalan sempit" itu...

bah, kali neh tahun, nombor genap bule jadi nombor bertuah....hahahahahaha

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Take a look at this word. And, ponder now how good are you in applying it in your life? Me? aiyahh... grading out of 100%, I only apply 10% of it...

Watched a drama, and this word come across my mind. The word are still flying inside my head. I know it is only a drama act and directed by a person. But, I do believed that the script are written and inspired by a real life of someone. Whom the person is, I don't know. nahh...it's just that, I can't imagine a person who really have it...
How can that person stand for it?
How does the person suffered with the pain?
What motivated the person to keep his/her faith?
Wahh...HOW can??? What and how can it be possibly true ??

Things does happened to me, and I ended up punching the door, kicking all the chairs and desk and even worst I hit my head on the wall or I punch my own head and after a little bit dizzy, I lie myself on the ground and usually fall asleep after then.. that is how I manage my anger. Nah, I'm not that patience enough. Sometimes, I will get into my car and drive myself to anyplace where my hand turn the sterling. I usually will pijak the minyak and drive the car as fast as can. There was a time, very early in the morning, yes it was around 1 am ++, and I was mad of one thing. I was really in the mode of "exploding" and without saying anything, I grab my key and went out of the house. My mind brings me to highway senadin-miri port. I speed my car and I hit a "dog??".. The road is really bumpy (it is an area of peat land) and I nearly skid to the side of the road when I brake the car. "Poor dog" this words came out of my mouth....but when I turn my head back, nothing is behind me. To confirmed it, I make a U-turn and...nothing there. Surely, nothing!!! .... Then, I drive back home and straight away went to sleep..

**that was the last time I act that way...now, I prefer to punch my own head, rather than going out and speed my car on the highway...hahahahah

Well, I can say that human are more mysterious than an alien...

fuhh...yeahhhh....

"When I don't speak, it doesn't mean that I am mad of you. It's just that, I want to be silence"
Hahahha...not the main content of the blog, so I just let you ponder by yourself about it..hahaha..For me, I like the phrase...

It's a tough week...far as I go, still manage to go through everything...hahaha... I found out that I laugh a lot this week.. when I woke up early in the morning, I think of the day that I'm going to encounter, then I start laughing... then, when whatever problems occur in front of me, I laugh and I even laugh without making sound with one of my hand rubbing my chest.. yup..it works. It made me felt better... problems will not be solved, but it helps to re-calm my mind and gives me more space to think...though, wouldn't get a quick solution, but it slow down the index of stresses. Besides, I felt fun doing it..try the "lough in evil" way during the hard time of finding an answer of your problem...Hahahahahahaha..... FUN right??muahahahahaha...

Human 1 said "we have only one life living in this world"

Human 2 said "stop thinking on how to take care of others feeling, and take care of your own feeling first. First, learn to love yourself, then you will know how to love others"

Human 3 said "to move a step further, you need a breakthrough. To have the breakthrough, you need to think out of the box."

And, lots more of the same quote that we hear/read/talk about, but as other said "to say is easier than to act"... my point here is, let not hear what other said about you, let not over-think on how to "jaga hati" people around you...I am learning to work as hard as I can and giving my very best in all task given, even for a small and tiny task....that's what Abba taught me, and I am disciplining myself to continue implementing it in my life... Lets shout " Lets just do it and give the best!!"