Things that Move me on

Next week I’ll be going out for a fieldtrip. I will be out of the ‘network’ for almost 3 weeks, depending on the result of the geophysics surveyed. Anyway, even if the results is not going to give a green light to continue the survey with more survey lines, we still need at least 2 days to transport back all the equipments and fieldwork tools to our base camp.

Looking back to the previous month, I used to set on target/objective to keep the time ticking until the next week of the same day... I created an emotion of excitement waiting for the same day of another week and this makes me go on... that’s why, it is one of the reason that I sometime are not realized that months and years have passed.

I used to wait for MONDAY, because of STAR KING, THE FIRST WIVES CLUB and YES, CAPTAIN

I waited for TUESDAY because of KPOP STAR... switching on the tv right away I reached home

Waited for WEDNESDAY because of THE VOICE, THE FIRST WIVES CLUB and SALARYMAN CHO HAN JI

Another day of THURSDAY because of STRONG HEART, THE FIRST WIVES CLUB and SALARYMAN CHO HAN JI

Used to wait for RUNNING MAN on FRIDAY

SATURDAY will be the marathon of Movie and Drama from CDs

SUNDAY will be resting the whole day after the laundry....

And next week, I’m going to be in the “heart of greens” for almost 3 weeks... ohh nooo... what should I do to replace all the "so called activity"?? hahaha....No tv, no network, no sms, no internet, no clean filtered water supply and no electricity. I was used to enjoy staying in the jungle before. When I went for it for the first time, I was very excited; it feels like going back to kampung and experiencing the air with fresh O2. But then, after many trips, the index of excitement falling down with the self-motivation. What so ever, AS ORDERED, it is a MUST for me to do the fieldwork...No fieldwork = No learning = No Report to show the boss = No APC ..hahahaha. Therefore, I am going with a hope that I will come back with a fresh motivation after the meditation in the jungle.Hahahaha...kidding. For this coming trip, I hope that things will go smoothly as for the preparation, tools, the schedule, the journey, the roads (hopefully not raining on the day we travel because the logging roads will get slippery)... Hoping for the best time and enjoyable trip, lets be back safe and peace...hahahahahhahahha

Grrrrr.....still not having any idea on what to do on the site while waiting for the next day to rise. On the site, we used to sleep as early as 7pm or 8pm..just right after dinner. With only candles bright out the camp, for the first week of all trip, I felt it was a very peaceful period of life. Followed by the sound of bugs, frogs and birds (owl?/small birds/crow?), it does really refreshing my mind. What matter is, for the first week is feel just okey, but for another more week of Week 2 and Week 3, goshhh, I get toxic-ted..hahaha...

I should do Reading.. Ermm.... it is already a “must do” thing in the site. What other entertainment can I do?... I need to sort the things I should do while I am in the site... What say you? Any idea?

semua seperti menjadi genap

seperti semua akan menjadi genap pada tahun ini...seperti satu kebetulan, baru tadi aku terpikir pada kira-kira ini:

aku lahir pada 28 haribulan 12 pada tahun 1982. Bila dibuat kira-kira;
28+12+1982 = 2012

nah..genap lagi...tahun 2012?? ada maksud ka ini??

tahun ini pun genap umur 30 tahun..dan sekali lagi nombor genap....

harap-harap la tahuan 2012 neh akan menjadi tahun prosperity...ada juga aku rasa macam tarikh expire hidupp di dunia..hahaha..kalau pun adalah tahun genap berada di bumi, harap-harap la menuju jalan yg betul dan tidak menyimpang dari "pintu dan jalan sempit" itu...

bah, kali neh tahun, nombor genap bule jadi nombor bertuah....hahahahahaha

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Take a look at this word. And, ponder now how good are you in applying it in your life? Me? aiyahh... grading out of 100%, I only apply 10% of it...

Watched a drama, and this word come across my mind. The word are still flying inside my head. I know it is only a drama act and directed by a person. But, I do believed that the script are written and inspired by a real life of someone. Whom the person is, I don't know. nahh...it's just that, I can't imagine a person who really have it...
How can that person stand for it?
How does the person suffered with the pain?
What motivated the person to keep his/her faith?
Wahh...HOW can??? What and how can it be possibly true ??

Things does happened to me, and I ended up punching the door, kicking all the chairs and desk and even worst I hit my head on the wall or I punch my own head and after a little bit dizzy, I lie myself on the ground and usually fall asleep after then.. that is how I manage my anger. Nah, I'm not that patience enough. Sometimes, I will get into my car and drive myself to anyplace where my hand turn the sterling. I usually will pijak the minyak and drive the car as fast as can. There was a time, very early in the morning, yes it was around 1 am ++, and I was mad of one thing. I was really in the mode of "exploding" and without saying anything, I grab my key and went out of the house. My mind brings me to highway senadin-miri port. I speed my car and I hit a "dog??".. The road is really bumpy (it is an area of peat land) and I nearly skid to the side of the road when I brake the car. "Poor dog" this words came out of my mouth....but when I turn my head back, nothing is behind me. To confirmed it, I make a U-turn and...nothing there. Surely, nothing!!! .... Then, I drive back home and straight away went to sleep..

**that was the last time I act that way...now, I prefer to punch my own head, rather than going out and speed my car on the highway...hahahahah

Well, I can say that human are more mysterious than an alien...

fuhh...yeahhhh....

"When I don't speak, it doesn't mean that I am mad of you. It's just that, I want to be silence"
Hahahha...not the main content of the blog, so I just let you ponder by yourself about it..hahaha..For me, I like the phrase...

It's a tough week...far as I go, still manage to go through everything...hahaha... I found out that I laugh a lot this week.. when I woke up early in the morning, I think of the day that I'm going to encounter, then I start laughing... then, when whatever problems occur in front of me, I laugh and I even laugh without making sound with one of my hand rubbing my chest.. yup..it works. It made me felt better... problems will not be solved, but it helps to re-calm my mind and gives me more space to think...though, wouldn't get a quick solution, but it slow down the index of stresses. Besides, I felt fun doing it..try the "lough in evil" way during the hard time of finding an answer of your problem...Hahahahahahaha..... FUN right??muahahahahaha...

Human 1 said "we have only one life living in this world"

Human 2 said "stop thinking on how to take care of others feeling, and take care of your own feeling first. First, learn to love yourself, then you will know how to love others"

Human 3 said "to move a step further, you need a breakthrough. To have the breakthrough, you need to think out of the box."

And, lots more of the same quote that we hear/read/talk about, but as other said "to say is easier than to act"... my point here is, let not hear what other said about you, let not over-think on how to "jaga hati" people around you...I am learning to work as hard as I can and giving my very best in all task given, even for a small and tiny task....that's what Abba taught me, and I am disciplining myself to continue implementing it in my life... Lets shout " Lets just do it and give the best!!"

A night with soju...

Soju...I know this drink from korean drama I watched. Nampak macam sedap je...so, last night, we try to drink 1 bottle.... and.. yuppp.... slurrrppppp.....
Hahahaha.... try it with bolgogi pork + salad, and you will feel the "nyummmmy" taste.....wahhhh..... wanna have another round with this drink.....yeaaahhhhhh

Lets Laugh All the Way Of Our Life...

Ever heard of someone saying "Laugh, is the best medicine"? ....then, laugh more as you walk through all your life..

When you feel lonely, laugh crazily until the sound of your laugh fills the loneliness ....
When you feel not accepted, laugh crazily and loud until they hear you exists....
When you having trouble, laugh crazily until the worries gone and you feel sober enough to plan a new strategy of overcoming your problem...

When you are brokenhearted, laugh crazily until you can release all the pain out and leave a new sacred heart ...
When you are sad, laugh crazily until the tears become the tears of happiness...
When you feel angry, laugh crazily and louder so that you will not punch or kick other on their head/committed in quarrel..
When you feel happy, laugh crazily so that people surround you knows that there is still blessings given for all....

When you are crazy of someone that makes your heart beat faster, PLEASE DON'T laugh crazily in front of her/him..otherwise, your date will become a disaster; she/he will run out of the table/cinema because she/he think that you are really CRAZY...


Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahha.......

Life of Mr W....

source of picture: internet

Met a friend today yang terjumpa sama-sama masuk kedai and shared the same table for a drink. He is a friend of my friend Mr.T, that I just met for about 45 minutes (maybe less than an hour). I couldn't even recall his name. We shake hand and chat just like normal group of best friends chatting. It happened so fast that I have this "so-called moment of sharing" time with this guy when my other friend, Mr.T need to go out for a while to re-park his car because we parked only behind others car (was thinking at first that we will not stay long for a drink in the coffee house). Let call this friend of Mr.T as Mr.W.... the name wilfred came across my mind when i tried to recall his name....

When Mr.T walk out the coffee house, I totally lost of topics to chat with Mr. W. We are not that close and I just don't know what to talk about. To brake the moment of "angels passing by" a.k.a suddenly both are silence, Mr. W starts the conversation that start with "Apa kerja ko sekarang?". I answered the question and then he ask again. "Masih bujang lagi neh kan?". As usual, I just shake my head up and down and smile. Then Mr.W asked again "Bagus juga tu bujang. Senang mau explore dunia neh. Mmg besar neh dunia..siok kalau dapat pergi bnyk tempat."...And again I just smile and ask him back the same question as above...Nah, here the story starts. This is his answer. "saya kerja sendiri. Kecil-kecil jak", "saya pernah kawen tapi skrg suda divorce..panjang tu cerita.ko pun tidak akan mau dngr tu" and the last answer was "sy baru balik dari UK. Ada hal sikit sana. Minggu lepas di China".

At first, when I heard the "UK" and "China" mentioned, I thought that this guy is really showing off...Annoyed but then, after a period of "ques and answers" time, I'm getting interested with this ambitious guy (only the part on how he stood up after the fallen and the part of how he started to choose the main priority in his life). Sometimes, he does sound "showing-off" , proud of him-self and ada juga la "kata-kata besar" but I just ignore them. His story of "The Rise Of Mr.W" attracted me the most.I felt motivated knowing that there is a real person that really stood up fighting back for his life. Hermm..he is only 31 yrs old, owned a company, traveled overseas and domestic like almost of the day in a week and he used to be the "tidak-guna-punya-laki" (called by his ex-wife) because of unsuccessful business he planned <---itu yang dia cerita la...I laugh so loud when he mocked the way his wife saying "tia guna punya laki!" (with action of fingers)..Sorry for that dude. I laugh when you yourself make fun of your own story..don't get me wrong.by the way, he laughed too...Because of that, the wife left him (asked for divorce) and he return back to his family house.

Luckly for Mr.W, his father and mother are very supportive parent, that they help him financially to start a new business and things went well and he is now handling the company in his age of 30s'. wowww.... another man that I envy. I think Mr.W is very lucky person, eventhough he did babble about how tough is his life he had been through. In some of his words I think he is "complaining" about how bad is the world treating him. This was his last question when all our so-called moment of sharing ended when my friend Mr.T are back to our table..."semua kita ada kelemahan. Kita harus tau kelemahan kita supaya dapat kita baiki dan jadikan sebagai satu bahan yg akan membanggakan kita sendiri..so,what is your next step of life?"...hemm..maybe that is just his style of talking. It's a good question thou.But, when he ask this question, he do really sound like "I am the only the great man who had step on my next level of life and I succeeded when no one else could if they are facing the same thing as mine. Mine is worst and no other man have faced the worst than my journey of life"

Nahhh...if only I have more time with this guy, I will make him realize that the world has treated him a V.I.P service. He shouldn't complaint that much and shouldn't feel regretted. He has fallen down the valley to deep down the sea, and trapped on the fishing net, been brought up back alive on the land and now living life with prosperity. You are very lucky dude compare to others.. It has been nearly 30 years for me and I never felt that I get the things that I work for. I grab whatever come first in my life to survive but then regretted because I never have the chance to sit and wait for other options besides the first one that I choose. I just couldn't understand why should I still feel regretted when I did it to live.hahaha....Mr.W, you should travel more to see how other people struggling in their life. Some are willing to do anything for a slice of bread when you just throw the whole bread when a flies land on edge of your bread on your table. I know that I should, day by day, force myself to believe that in any circumstances, I should be thankful for every single second that I have been through (succeeded or not, lucky or not, I must and should say 'thank you'). Feeling blessed, as if not by HIS grace, I will not be the one as who I am now.

Thank You Lord Jesus...